Few days ago, I watched this preacher on youtube, the title of His message was “I Didn’t Know It Would Look Like This”. Right away, it brought my attention and I was interested in seeing how it could speak life to me. At the end of listening to this preacher, I was on the floor, thanking God, and giving Him the Glory because of His faithfulness, and best of all God’s grace upon my life!
Many of us have different testimonies, different trials, different seasons that God has brought us through. Many times we look back, and we’re in awe with how much strength and endurance we have endured! Many tears, that turn to joy. Many pain that brought us laughter. As I sat and reflected over the courses of my life, I couldn’t stop thinking how perfect this title was.
I came to know the Lord as a reborn again Christian at the age of 14, I was very young, and didn’t have a clue who Jesus was. I had to learn who He was, his nature and characteristics. When you first come to know your Lord and Savior, you can’t stop yourself from falling in love with your creator, and learn how wonderful He really is. But let me tell you, my walk was never easy. Although God said it wasn’t going to be, I made a lot of mistakes. God had to do a work in me, and He’s still doing a work in me. God molds you, he rebuilds you, He takes away all your impurities, and He does a mighty beautiful work in us. I didn’t know it would look like this!
When we fully come to understand, that God has a beautiful purpose for your life, plans, and promises, we also come to understand that we have trials, tribulations, and storms. I didn’t know it would look like this, when I was 14 years old, I didn’t know that my life would change, I didn’t know that I was going to let go of the bad, and receive the good, I didn’t know that God was getting rid of things from the inside so that it will be seen from the outside. I didn’t know my whole world would be different, I didn’t know that I would be transformed to a new person. 10 plus years later I’m not that same little girl who was just in the beginning of knowing her Father, but now standing here, loving who God is calling me to be, I didn’t know it would look like this.
If I ever had the opportunity to write a book, each chapter title would be every season that God and I have gone through together. Each chapter, you will see learning experiences, God’s grace, mercy, unconditional love, and most importantly tears… tears of joy! I wouldn’t want to change anything, if God told me what my life would be like at 14, would I have stayed, or is living in the unknown actually a good thing? I didn’t know it would look like this! But it definitley shaped me, matured me, brought me to repentance, and helped me to hold on to the one true God who has never left me nor forsaked me and has never failed me. You’ll not be the same person as you were when you first meet God, because as you continue on, you will learn that it was never about religion, but creating a relationship between you and the Most High God! God understands that you’re not perfect, and many of us have different walks, different callings, different demons we have to fight, but we ALL are under the same God who fights for us, who calls us according to his purpose, and loves us through our imperfections! I didn’t know it would look like this!
God knows our beginning, and God knows our end. God knows our choices, and he knows the path we take. He is the author of our story, He has our life written out, and He knows every step we take, and every place we go. He knows our thoughts before they even come. He knows our struggles, and our weaknesses, but he also knows our strengths, and what we can overcome. God turns ugly into beauty, we didn’t know it would look like this, but God did, and He still give himself up to die on the cross for US, so that we can live knowing that He lives in us, and goes before us! So that we can know the indescribable love He has for His children!
I want to encourage you today, keep seeking, keep drawing closer to God. Even though you’ve probably never imagined your life would’ve ended up like this, remember that God has always been there for you, when you look back and think about all that you have gone through, find God’s grace in it, find His outstretched arm, find His love, for He cares for you! Don’t let go, continue to press on, even when it seems like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel! Don’t get weary, for the promise is at hand! Your life has a purpose, you might not understand what He’s doing right now, but one day it will all make sense! He doesn’t call us to understand every detail, and every “why”, but he does help us to understand that God is for you, He is not against you! What you have done, or what you’re going to do, they don’t define you! God defines you, and he says you’re worthy, lift up your head, for the time is near, good days are coming, fullness of life is waiting upon you, let go of the old, and in with the new! For God is calling you closer, and he waits for you with open arms! I didn’t know it would look like this, but I put my trust in Him! ❤
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